October 28, 2006
· Filed under About me, Intellectual Talk
Yes I can talk about this matter because I was an atheists myself until I converted again. How did I become an atheist is a question which is too personal to discuss on a blog. How I converted again is explained in various previous posts of my blog.
So most atheists are people who think about things logically. Since logic cannot describe belief, they reject it. So here is my question:
Do you believe that your dad really is your dad? If yes, then how can you explain that logically? Don’t say that its because your mom told you so. Don’t say its because he has been good to you and has acted like a father. Explain to me like an original thinker. If you cannot explain, then be the honest person that you are and stop calling him dad.
Don’t worry folks, the real thinkers will take this question pretty well. I took it pretty well too. The person who asked me this question is not to be disclosed. 
October 23, 2006
· Filed under Intellectual Talk
If you want to do good to somebody, give him someone to love. If you can’t do that, give him some hope. If you can’t give him even that, then atleast give him something to do.
-From Movie “Flight of the Phoenix”
This is how most of us live our lives: Doing stuff we think we need to do to live. Why do we have to follow social paradigms? Why not live like its really the only time we are ever going to live?
October 22, 2006
· Filed under About me, Beyond this World, Intellectual Talk
Into thy hands I commend my spirit.
- Jesus Christ
Luke 23:46
…for human is weak and his mind is limited. Realisations lead to sadness. Like I said in my previous post, peace comes in either deluding into your animal instincts i.e. life or in sticking with the being who is beyond all human logic. I tried delusion and couldn’t let it overcome me. Then I tried using my logic and breaking a few threads which tie us to humanity. I failed and realised that there is a being whose will can over-ride human logic. So for a long time, I waited for Him to come to me… I am not sure whether He did come or not… So now, I won’t wait. I’ll do my thing and He will do whatever He does.
For those who will read these lines, know that being sheep is being in peace.
October 13, 2006
· Filed under Abnormal Psychology, About me
What do you wish for, when you think that life is worthless and this feeling grows each moment you live? I won’t say that I know the absolute reality of things, but that my version of reality is deep enough. Why do you do something? Because either you believe that its the right thing to do, or because its your instinctual call, or because your mind does a shitty analysis and tells you that its the right thing. Doing something in a certain direction doesn’t assure the results. God has strange ways of doing things! He lets us think up our own versions of the correct direction. He lets us decide our path. We decide stupid stuff, implement what we plan and at the end, it doesn’t happen! Then He has shown us a path too. That path requires belief. What kind of belief? The kind which cannot be shaken by logic and argument! Thats the whole point behind the word belief! It has nothing to do with logic! The path he gives us can be however described in terms of logic of all levels. But even if we follow what He tells us to do, results are still not assured. He wants us to do the thing because we believe, not because we want results. He creates a balance. How would God balance things in my life? I’m content with everything that is happening around me. I was content the moment I realised that all this doesn’t matter. Ofcourse I do wish sometimes that I was a blind fool and would lead a blind life. Here is my problem: I want to wish! I want to want stuff in life. I do stuff in life because my mind does a stupid analysis about happiness and tells me stuff to do! Stupid! Happiness has nothing to do with analysis! How do I free myself from my mind? There are two ways: One, I become a blind fool and set blind landmarks of happiness and kick my own ass fr the rest of my life to attain those goals. Second, God gives me belief. And yes, when it will happen, it will be absolutely reasonless and spontaneous. Our limited mind has nothing to do with what belief is… Belief is when you defy logic… and be perfectly fine with it… What am I now? A colorless person with a colorless life. Nothing can motivate me, make me ambitious and make me want it. I do stuff because thats what you are supposed to do in life. I don’t want to die either. Sometimes I think: Whats the idea of a good deed or a bad deed when God is there to do justice? He will deal everyone with justice! So lets just do whatever I feel like. But then, somethings are reasonless and you think that certain deeds are wrong. People do wrong all the time! They do wrong, they feel guilty, they say sorry to God and wake up happy next morning. I do what I think is wrong, I don’t feel guilty, I only become more convined about human nature, I don’t say sorry to God, I explain to the concerned person how I was being a pig and how that makes me an average person and then I sleep because thats what humans do: sleep! When I think whether or not my life is going the way it shuld, I end up thinkin: whats the right way to live this life anyway? I don’t know enough. Humans are just way too week and ignorant creatures I guess…
Note: I was appaled by the truth in this post. This post made me wonder why after figuring out that belief is the key to happiness, I still couldn’t find happiness. Even today, I believe belief to be the key. Why didn’t God guide me to the right path before? Did He want me to realize more stuff? Did He want me to solve all the logical problems underneath? I think it is not my job to figure out why… He does what He does. And we should do only what we are supposed to do: pray for happiness in ways prescribed by Him. (November 5, 2008)
October 1, 2006
· Filed under A Day Flashes By..., About me
“The worst thing a man can do to his friend is to remind him of their friendship.”
-me, today
From some girl’s orkut profile:
ideal match: someone who wants to know ME rather than b known . someone who really digs in deep to find the real me and shatters the wall that ive built aroun me.
Plus .. he should b truely good-lookin .. no ugly dawg will ever do ! atleast 6 feet tall , wid a great sense of humour, a killing smile and a great bod ! (i know em askin for a way too much ! but cant help it 
)
You can read hypocrisy within those few lines! I can live with the most strange people in the world but I can’t live with those who are not honest even to themselves.
Note: Though the post is supposed to be random, its not. Both my own quote and the extract pasted relate to depth of emotions. The second deals with the problem at a surface level, while the first one is more aesthetic and complex. (November 5, 2008)
October 1, 2006
· Filed under Beyond this World, Intellectual Talk
Continuing from the post titled “Mind, Soul and Heart”:
Instincts and intellect are features of a human mind. They are identical for everyone. Emotions are the first clue to the meta-physical aspects of this universe and makes people what they are. Emotions create a sense-less deluded person or an intellectual person from the same starting ground.
Humans are comparable to animals when born. Every moment lived will bring in emotions and eventually make a human better or worse than animals. What is an animal? A being which fullfills its instincts one way or the other, and once fullfilled, it will become content and won’t look for more just for the heck of it. What makes a human different? The ability to control his instincts and on the flip side, the desire to surpass his limits and go beyond fullfilling his instincts just for fun. Emotions make a human what he is!
Emotions have a dual property. Normally, people think that their instinctual urges are their emotions too. They do feel the emotions coming right from their hearts as well, but they are unable to distinct the two. The one who realise what his instincts are, is eventually lead to realising the greater entities inside him: soul and heart. Thus he realise what real emotions are and how they have a relation with something, which can only be felt and not described, called heart.
For those who haven’t gone through these thought processes himself, the above words would not make any sense. So don’t bother a lot… The most unlucky person is the world is the one who realises these facts and then decides to give in to his instincts. He kills the goodness of his heart and he is meant to be damned. God save us all, for he is the only one who can…
