March 28, 2008
· Filed under My Perfect World
This blog is my shit hole. Whenever I feel bad, I come and write something here. When I am happy, the blog seems meaningless. Why is that bad? Its bad because now I have a whole time line of my bad times, and there is no record of my happy times.
Note: This is true that I only wrote about bad times. But when I read my blog from beginning till end, I saw a pattern. Everytime I thought that I saw things more clearly than before. Many times, I exclaimed that I have reached to the end of all realizations and that the end isn’t so bad. But things kept evolving, making this blog not just a memoir of bad times but a record of evolution of my thought process as well. (November 4, 2008)
March 27, 2008
· Filed under About me
He will forgive me. I can forgive myself.
But that’s not the point. The point is recovering the spilt milk.
How can that ever happen?
Note: Read the note for the post “Scarred Forever”. (November 4, 2008)
March 27, 2008
· Filed under About me
I don’t deserve what I want. I don’t want what I deserve.
Like I said, scarred forever…
Note: Everyone deserves happiness. What is more is that God wants humans to be happy. Its us who choose our paths which take us away from our happiness. His ways make us happy. What I wanted at that time was true happiness. Somehow I thought that my mistakes in life would prevent me from finding true happiness. From the grace of the God of Alhamd and Rehman, I now have what I wanted. 
(November 4, 2008)
March 27, 2008
· Filed under About me
Only if tears could wash it all away… but I’ve been scarred beyond the point of return and recovery.
Note: God can revert a human back to his nature anytime He wants. There is nothing like being scarred forever, given you don’t put yourself in any delusion. (November 4, 2008)
March 21, 2008
· Filed under My Perfect World
If logic and science really did explain everything, every human would be the same. Humans are different. The diversity itself is the biggest proof that there is a bigger power.
What has this atheist/capitalist behavior given us? Now everyone wants to be “different”. Idiots!!! You already are different! The only thing common in all of you is that all of you want to be rockstars! And the desire to be “different” makes you just like everyone else!
This is the big experiment of the capitalist bosses! Make everyone the same so that they are easier to control! Come on people, open your eyes!
March 20, 2008
· Filed under My Perfect World
Women: I am a deer and my stomach can only digest grass and leaves. But if I want to feed on flesh, its my right to try it. You men have no business telling me what I should and shouldn’t eat.
Men: Hey women, men are tigers, and we are meant to eat flesh. We don’t insist on eating grass do we? We know we can’t digest it so we leave your job to you. Why don’t you accept your role too?
And about “equality of genders”: Tigers aren’t superior to deers! Its not about superiority, its about accepting the role God gave you! Tigers are strong, but aren’t cute like deers! Deers can run for hours, tigers tire out in a minute! Tigers and deers can’t be compared!
Women and men are not equal. At somethings, men are better. At other things, women are better! Be natural!!! And no, women cannot do everything a man can! And similarly, a man cannot do everything a woman can!
This female right and feminism is just a stupid offspring of our capitalist world. Realize it!
Note: The sentence “women and men are not equal” should be replaced with “women and men are equal but not identical”. (November 4, 2008)
March 17, 2008
· Filed under Uncategorized
Now, my blind eyes can see what others cannot. That sometimes the hand of fate must be forced!
-Illidan Stormage (WC3)
Note: This post was another of those “I have seen everything and now things will be different and better” posts. (November 4, 2008)
March 13, 2008
· Filed under Abnormal Psychology, About me, Intellectual Talk
Have you heard of a person who begged himself for forgiveness? I have resurrected myself for my mistakes in ways that I’m sure even God wouldn’t. Now I fear myself more than I fear God. :s
I should learn to forgive myself, to let myself go free and flying.
Note: I read this entry again today, and I realized that I was wrong in making a distinction between my own resurrection and God’s ressurection. The way a human’s mistakes eat him up from the inside is resurrection inflicted upon him by God. This leads to a herectic definition of the concept of heaven and hell. (November 4, 2008)
March 6, 2008
· Filed under About me
Ever heard of those haunted wells, which are known to suck anyone who tries to look down in them, into their depths? Well I’ve seen a few. Those wells have a strange aura which scares everyone away. Nobody dares to come close and look. The depth is scary, and you don’t want to fall down in there. You talk about it, you joke about it, and you try to ignore it. You try to think of it as just a myth and nothing real. You would walk to it, look down and quickly turn away. You will say, “see, there ain’t anything”. But deep down you will be enchanted about it.
I feel I am a well like that…
March 2, 2008
· Filed under Abnormal Psychology, Forensic Psychology, Intellectual Talk, My Perfect World
May be you do realize the problems better when you are desperate. But the solution doesn’t lay in desperate measures. One needs to be over and above the depression to set things right.
Sometimes, the depression itself is the biggest obsession we have.
Note: This was a phenomenal post. The words above proposes the ultimate self improvement method. The rule has implications in correcting not only depression, but all psychological troubles. The root cause of all sadness can be related to a human’s obsession with an idea. Handling the idea at an intellectual level is not the solution, but being indifferent from the whole idea itself leads to freedom. (November 4, 2008)
