Archive for June, 2008

How to live?

June 28, 2008 · Filed under Abnormal Psychology, About me, Beyond this World, Intellectual Talk

“Logic is human creation”, I thought “It is limited and cannot be trusted. A man must give up to His ways.” “I should stop being no analytical, and be more impulsive.” I concluded.

That is what I said in this post. Ofcourse humans make mistakes and reach inaccurate conclusions.

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Human mind is machine with an input and output system. The outputs are our emotions, decisions, conclusions, action plans etc. Outputs are pretty straight forward. Its the inputs which are complicated. We think that things we see in the world, our experiences, information and knowledge are the inputs. I don’t think so. I think our observations are in a way just a process of the machine itself. The inputs are very concealed.

Have you ever wondered when some idea comes to your mind, and you think why the idea didn’t come to you before? Many times we relate the ideas to our experiences in life, but I have had ideas which just came without any connection with my conscious.

These random ideas trigger processes in our mind which result in our emotions and conclusions. Are these random ideas really random? I think not. As I’ve said before, I think every thing He does is well calculated and planned.

The input to our mind are ideas given by Him. If it was not so, everybody in the world would become identical to each other! Its the variety of ideas which make everyone different.

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When my ideas and my mind are His creations, how can I say that my logical conclusions are my creations? I reach all my conclusions because He wants me to reach those conclusions. So how can I simply trash my logic?

Yes, this does raise the confusing question of “who am I?” And I have no answer to that.

For a very long time, “how to live” has been a riddle in my mind. But now I am giving up this riddle. I choose to be logical, then I choose to be impulsive. But really, I don’t know the complete picture. New things keep coming up.

We should just live. Sometimes we are going to do things logically, sometimes we are just going to go by gut. We should just let ourselves be, set ourselves free. And we must do the right thing when we come to the crossroads. When I come to the crossroads in my life, I stop and think, “Is this description of right thing logical or impulsive?” No damnit! Don’t think like that! The fact is that you always know what the right thing is. Just do it.

I have just realized that in the past, I couldn’t concentrate on doing the right thing because I was so preoccupied with all these philosophical questions. I simply didn’t have a clear head for such a long time. Anyway, it was what He wanted. I guess there is no use in regretting what has happened already.

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Signs of Qiamat

June 24, 2008 · Filed under A Day Flashes By..., Wit Reincarnated

Holy shit! Why did I do this to myself? o_O

I got a ‘tind’ done. According to my mom, last time I had a tind was when I was five years old. :P

Edit: Picture changed to reflect the latest view. :P

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… goes on.

June 23, 2008 · Filed under Beyond this World, Intellectual Talk

Many times in my life, I thought I knew what I was doing. I though I had finally figured out how to live. But God likes to give us surprises. It doesn’t take long before He shatters down our logic, and builds a new one for us. A new logic comes into place, to solve the problems with the old logic, and to introduce some new riddles.

A problem cannot be solved with the same level of consciousness that created it.

- Albert Einstein

With every step, the role of logic is stepped down, and the role of the emotions is stepped up. Since giving up logic make humans feel that they are not doing enough, or that they have gone worse off, they try to regain their logic. I have finally figured out that this is not the way to go. With every step, the role of God Himself is stepped up more evident than before, and the limitations of your role become more obvious. The way to go is to stop trying, to stop resisting His ways. Let Him do the thing, for He will do it anyway, and our resisting, our logic doesn’t matter anyway.

Then may be a human can find peace.

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The Bad New World

June 16, 2008 · Filed under My Perfect World

So my family has been looking for a girl for me to marry. That is the way it goes in Pakistan. Families look for their children’s spuces-to-be. Ofcourse I told my mom about what I look for in a girl. My prime requirement was a girl who takes hijab, not just as a piece of cloth, but with its full essence. The other requirements include her being intelligent and well educated, intellectual and open minded etc…

Finding this combination seems to be a problem. See the well educated girls have abandoned hijab. Hijab is left for the poor, uneducated families, not that all uneducated people necessarily take hijab either. Somehow being educated and open minded translates into taking the veil off! What is that? I am angry about it because this bloody directionless education has made sure that I wouldn’t find the right girl. :S

Recently a fellow blogger criticized me in length when I said that the western education is not the right thing for the women of Pakistan. Though she herself belongs to the rare species of educated yet veiled women, she has this impression that this education system would be the guardian angel for the women of Pakistan. Its not!

Coming back to the real topic, i.e. not being able to find the right girl. There are people who are willing to literally sell off their girls. They would flaunt anything that is flauntable. When my mom snubs them harshly, telling them, “We are looking for a girl, not for money” or “Beauty is surface”, they are put off. First they describe the girl as “modern and fashionable”. When my mom tells them that she wants a girl who takes hijab, they retreat to, “Han tu larki shadi ke baad parda shuru kar de gi na” (Okay okay girl would start taking parda after marriage) I don’t need that shit!

I want a girl who has saved herself, who has refused attention because she looks forward to attention of only one guy. That is the essence of parda.

Note: I don’t agree with the definition of the essence of parda I described in the last pararaph. Though at a psychological level, this definition holds true, but this is far from a complete definition. Parda for women is part of their nature. Nature can only go with nature. Hence parda becomes something extremely important for me. (November 5, 2008)

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Mental Poise

June 14, 2008 · Filed under Beyond this World, Intellectual Talk

After long years spent in vain efforts to quench desire by indulgence, the truth dawned on him.

Returning to Puru, he said: “Dear son, sensual desire is never quenched by indulgence any more than fire is by pouring ghee in it. I had heard and read this, but till now I had not realised it. No object of desire, corn, gold, cattle or women, nothing can ever satisfy the desire of man, we can reach peace only by a mental poise beyond likes and dislikes. Such is the state of Brahman.”

- Yayati, Mahabharat

Likes and dislikes are objects of our mind. Nature doesn’t have likes and dislikes. Nature has a way. Nature guides you when your mind fails.

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Random?

June 12, 2008 · Filed under About me, Beyond this World, Intellectual Talk

When humans fail to model something, they call it random. Heck they even have a whole model to describe randomness itself, i.e. the Brownian motion! There is no Brownian motion in my life, nothing just happened for no reason.

Saying that something can be random is saying that God isn’t “all mighty”. If you believe in God, you will believe that everything has a careful plan behind it.

I, like God, do not play with dice and I don’t believe in coincidences.

- from V for Vendetta

Note: I will like to quote from Nahjul Balagha here: God knows the place where a leaf fallen from a tree will land. (November 4, 2008)

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What is Love?

June 9, 2008 · Filed under About me, Intellectual Talk

I’ve never loved a woman. So I don’t know what loving a woman is like. I sometimes wonder how something can be so great that you would never want another woman in your life!!?? That seems a bit unrealistic. But then there is this other feeling, which tells me that yes, it will be that beautiful and wonderful. If love it will be, it will be that legendary.

People I love are natural selection, i.e. my family. Though my mind likes to tell me that loving a woman would be my own selection, I don’t really buy it. Loving a woman would be a natural selection as well. Otherwise, it simply wouldn’t be as great as it must be.

Again, the confusion of where His choices end, and my choices start, prevails. :)

Note 1: Lol! Commenting at this post is very difficult for me at this point in time. Yes, what I said above holds true. Yes, such decisions are always a natural selection rather than a human’s own selection. These decisions are part of the nature. Nature is prevelent, and everything done according to nature leads you to the ultimate happiness. I knew things will be good. I didn’t know they will be so good. The way things did eventually go, it was more of a divine decision rather than a human decision. At the end, I didn’t even feel the need to use my own judgment. (November 4, 2008) :)

Note 2: The post and the note above will go down in the history. :) (November 4, 2008)

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Haray Rama…

June 4, 2008 · Filed under About me, Beyond this World, Intellectual Talk

Kis waqt dasht ko tanha chora

Har pal aik aabla paa hota hai

- Tariq Zaidi

Each moment of my life is monitored very very closely. Every step, every action is analyzed, conclusions are reached. I’m never left alone. Nothing in my life remains unexplained. Everything is exposed to so much light. Living free is not a concept for me.

Still, I cannot draw a line of where He ends and I start. The question is: Who is me? Because I cannot see ‘me’ anywhere in my life and this world. So the most I can do is to say: I – with whatever limit that is where I start – ask You – with whatever limit that is where You can actually end – to make my desires, Your desires; for everything is how you desire.

And people have the nerve to judge others…

Note: This concept of analysing everything goes a lot deeper than what it might look like on the top. When I wrote this post, analysing everything was actually the right thing to do. At that time, that seemed to be the right thing. Later I realized that too much thinking makes you obsessed with the thoughts you originally wanted to quit. Hence analysing too much isn’t the right thing. This realization was at a psychological level. Yet another level of realization is done at a level of belief and feelings, where a human is a being created on nature and he is simply not supposed to think about things which lead to deviation from nature. (November 4, 2008)

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