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How to live?

“Logic is human creation”, I thought “It is limited and cannot be trusted. A man must give up to His ways.” “I should stop being no analytical, and be more impulsive.” I concluded.

That is what I said in this post. Ofcourse humans make mistakes and reach inaccurate conclusions.

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Human mind is machine with an input and output system. The outputs are our emotions, decisions, conclusions, action plans etc. Outputs are pretty straight forward. Its the inputs which are complicated. We think that things we see in the world, our experiences, information and knowledge are the inputs. I don’t think so. I think our observations are in a way just a process of the machine itself. The inputs are very concealed.

Have you ever wondered when some idea comes to your mind, and you think why the idea didn’t come to you before? Many times we relate the ideas to our experiences in life, but I have had ideas which just came without any connection with my conscious.

These random ideas trigger processes in our mind which result in our emotions and conclusions. Are these random ideas really random? I think not. As I’ve said before, I think every thing He does is well calculated and planned.

The input to our mind are ideas given by Him. If it was not so, everybody in the world would become identical to each other! Its the variety of ideas which make everyone different.

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When my ideas and my mind are His creations, how can I say that my logical conclusions are my creations? I reach all my conclusions because He wants me to reach those conclusions. So how can I simply trash my logic?

Yes, this does raise the confusing question of “who am I?” And I have no answer to that.

For a very long time, “how to live” has been a riddle in my mind. But now I am giving up this riddle. I choose to be logical, then I choose to be impulsive. But really, I don’t know the complete picture. New things keep coming up.

We should just live. Sometimes we are going to do things logically, sometimes we are just going to go by gut. We should just let ourselves be, set ourselves free. And we must do the right thing when we come to the crossroads. When I come to the crossroads in my life, I stop and think, “Is this description of right thing logical or impulsive?” No damnit! Don’t think like that! The fact is that you always know what the right thing is. Just do it.

I have just realized that in the past, I couldn’t concentrate on doing the right thing because I was so preoccupied with all these philosophical questions. I simply didn’t have a clear head for such a long time. Anyway, it was what He wanted. I guess there is no use in regretting what has happened already.

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… goes on.

Many times in my life, I thought I knew what I was doing. I though I had finally figured out how to live. But God likes to give us surprises. It doesn’t take long before He shatters down our logic, and builds a new one for us. A new logic comes into place, to solve the problems with the old logic, and to introduce some new riddles.

A problem cannot be solved with the same level of consciousness that created it.

- Albert Einstein

With every step, the role of logic is stepped down, and the role of the emotions is stepped up. Since giving up logic make humans feel that they are not doing enough, or that they have gone worse off, they try to regain their logic. I have finally figured out that this is not the way to go. With every step, the role of God Himself is stepped up more evident than before, and the limitations of your role become more obvious. The way to go is to stop trying, to stop resisting His ways. Let Him do the thing, for He will do it anyway, and our resisting, our logic doesn’t matter anyway.

Then may be a human can find peace.

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Mental Poise

After long years spent in vain efforts to quench desire by indulgence, the truth dawned on him.

Returning to Puru, he said: “Dear son, sensual desire is never quenched by indulgence any more than fire is by pouring ghee in it. I had heard and read this, but till now I had not realised it. No object of desire, corn, gold, cattle or women, nothing can ever satisfy the desire of man, we can reach peace only by a mental poise beyond likes and dislikes. Such is the state of Brahman.”

- Yayati, Mahabharat

Likes and dislikes are objects of our mind. Nature doesn’t have likes and dislikes. Nature has a way. Nature guides you when your mind fails.

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Random?

When humans fail to model something, they call it random. Heck they even have a whole model to describe randomness itself, i.e. the Brownian motion! There is no Brownian motion in my life, nothing just happened for no reason.

Saying that something can be random is saying that God isn’t “all mighty”. If you believe in God, you will believe that everything has a careful plan behind it.

I, like God, do not play with dice and I don’t believe in coincidences.

- from V for Vendetta

Note: I will like to quote from Nahjul Balagha here: God knows the place where a leaf fallen from a tree will land. (November 4, 2008)

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Haray Rama…

Kis waqt dasht ko tanha chora

Har pal aik aabla paa hota hai

- Tariq Zaidi

Each moment of my life is monitored very very closely. Every step, every action is analyzed, conclusions are reached. I’m never left alone. Nothing in my life remains unexplained. Everything is exposed to so much light. Living free is not a concept for me.

Still, I cannot draw a line of where He ends and I start. The question is: Who is me? Because I cannot see ‘me’ anywhere in my life and this world. So the most I can do is to say: I – with whatever limit that is where I start – ask You – with whatever limit that is where You can actually end – to make my desires, Your desires; for everything is how you desire.

And people have the nerve to judge others…

Note: This concept of analysing everything goes a lot deeper than what it might look like on the top. When I wrote this post, analysing everything was actually the right thing to do. At that time, that seemed to be the right thing. Later I realized that too much thinking makes you obsessed with the thoughts you originally wanted to quit. Hence analysing too much isn’t the right thing. This realization was at a psychological level. Yet another level of realization is done at a level of belief and feelings, where a human is a being created on nature and he is simply not supposed to think about things which lead to deviation from nature. (November 4, 2008)

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The Foundation Stone

People rely on knowledge and logic. People also have a concept about “the ultimate truth”. People define their version of “the ultimate truth” or “the absolute reality” where their logic cannot find a way.

People define “the ultimate truth” in an abstract way. May be a person bestowed with more ideas than me can explain my version of “the ultimate truth” with logic. Still, even he will have a concept of the absolute reality which would be yet another level of abstraction.

My concepts, beliefs and knowledge might just be a subset of another person’s. They might overlap with someone else. A highly unlikely situation of being mutually exclusive concepts might also be there.

The absolute knowledge belongs to God.

Note: Okay, this one even confused me. :| I don’t agree anymore with the first statement that you define the ultimate truth where logic cannot find a way. My beliefs reflect the ultimate truth. Things will become more and more clear to you with the passage of time. You will realize how things you previously only believed mean so much more in so many different ways. I will agree with the concept that my knowledge can be a subset of another person’s knowledge. Nature is the common factor across the universe. Such overlapping of knowledge and realizations is possible. (November 4, 2008)

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Qeht-ur-Rijal

Where are the men? Where are the men with courage to have their chests ripped apart by the blade of their enemy’s sword? Where are the men with heart to kill another man when they fight for the right? Where are the men who actually believe enough to stand up for it?

Yet more, where are the men who conquered themselves? Where are those who listen to the voice of truth inside themselves? Where are the men with strong will who would do the right thing even when the world doesn’t like it?

These men don’t exist anymore. Rajul means a man, qeht-ur-rijal means lack of men.

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In one of his short stories, Intizar Hussain said that creation of a flour strainer caused the class system to evolve. I very much agree to this. The rich did not want to eat the rough whole flour, and started eating smoother refined flour. Refined flour is required for preparation of the delicacies, the food of the rich.

When you strain the flour so that you are left only with fine white flour, you take out essential nutrition contents from the wheat. Eating fine flour over extended period of time causes malnutrition and excess of estrogen in body. Excess of estrogen causes testosterone levels to go down. Excess of estrogen is directly related to depression, diseases and loss of virility. Depression and poor health eventually lead to dissatisfaction, loss of will power, sadness, infertility, excessive worrying, guilt and fear.

The psychological defense to their fears is to start believing that there is no reason to be afraid, that they are mighty and will not be resurrected. Hence the excessive worrying, fear and sadness causes most to loose their religious beliefs. They don’t see God’s hand in anything. Everything seems only logical. Life seems absurd. Atheism comes in. Science becomes God.

Since they think there is no hereafter, life is overemphasized. Having a “perfect life” becomes more important. The distinction between right and wrong becomes meaningless. Fulfillment of instincts becomes more important than doing the right thing.

Even if they do realize what is right, they might not actually do it because of the lack of will power.

For this fulfillment and a perfect life, people set certain goals. Perfect physical appearance, wealth, fashion, personality and style and what not…

Now think: If you don’t let such a person fulfill his instincts, his life will become miserable. To fulfill his instincts, he will do anything! He will pay you to have a perfect life. He will pay you for any stupid thing which he thinks is important for his life. Since a man cannot possibly have everything he wants, he will be stuck in the vicious cycle of sadness and temporary happiness he gets by spending money on things he thinks he wants.

Now look at the world today. We have processed foods in plastic containers which are extremely high in estrogen content. People today have higher levels of estrogen levels than ever before. This leads to lack of testosterone which then leads to a host of physical and psychiatric problems. As explained above, the person goes through the vicious cycle. The corporates running under the capitalist economy create all the foods high in estrogen contents. Corporate sector then makes the medicines for all the new fancy diseases. Corporates make cosmetics, designer clothes, and all other things to pamper a human’s instincts. Corporates run media to show you all the californication. You join the missing links. The corporate world is the biggest supporter of science. They are the ones making fun of religions and beliefs.

So today, people have bad health, weak beliefs, they are depressed and worried, they want to have a perfect life and they earn to buy stuff which make them only temporarily happy. All good for capitalism and corporate culture!

If people would stick to basic unprocessed foods, there would be no corporate culture!!! They would be happier, healthier and would be strong in beliefs. All these things simply go together.

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So how can we have men anymore? Real men don’t exist anymore, thanks to capitalism, atheism and the american dream.

Note: Definitely a phenomenal post. This post is from the initial phase of my attempts to theorize why humans cannot be happy. This post was a huge step in the right direction. Though this post might seem only political, this has everything to do with my life, beliefs and feelings. (November 4, 2008)

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Judge Me?

You guys don’t know me. Stuff I write here possibly makes sense only to me. Still you come here and read. You deduce meanings from my writings which I never intended.

I generalize and theorize my topics. Still, every post I write is closely related to my life and what I am experiencing at the moment.

People read, interact with me and assume that they have read every line on my palm. Like I said in my previous post, I am an ordinary person exposed to extraordinary concepts and people. No matter what I write, there are parts of me which remain hidden.

I look at life and this world as a part of a very big picture. Normally, people don’t look at life at all, they just live it.

A friend recently read a post on my blog and said, “You have started to sound like folk tales.” That is true. My life has exposed me to things which made me reach those timeless conclusions. Once again, God created an extraordinary setting for my life, it was none of my achievement.

When I really did have some control over things in life, I screwed up. I failed myself. Every good thing in my life is totally to be attributed to God.

A human has intellect. Fuel to intellect are ideas. A human has some control over how he wants to use his intellect. But he has absolutely no control what ideas come to his mind. Ideas come from God. All a human needs to do is to ‘process’ the ideas honestly.

Lets just say that God gives me a lot of ideas.

This blog cannot possibly tell about all the ideas in my head. How can you possibly judge me from my blog?

Being judgmental is the most useless use of our brain. Be more emotional. Love me, hate me. And do it impulsively, don’t base it on ‘reasons’. How can you love someone or hate someone for reasons.

I am writing all this because some people judge me based on what I write. How can you, when even I cannot? Every next moment gives me a new insight about the moments that have gone by.

Vanity kills the soul.

Note: I like this post for the concept of how ideas are from God. However, processing each and every idea at a conscious level, analysing and controlling your phyche doesn’t seem to be a very good idea. One should live free. Overall, this is one of those “nobody knows me” posts. (November 4, 2008)

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Me & You

Calling myself “me” is a statement of ego. Referring to you as “you” is not compassionate. Combining you and me as “we” is disrespectful. Calling me “you” is an over-statement. Feeling you as “me” is love.

-Stinger :)

The lines above sum up the great depression of my life. Finally, I can say that its over.

Note: As strange as it might sound, the above quote does actually sum up everything I today believe and feel. The last sentence, “Feeling you as “me” is love” is the most important. It should be noted that God created us on nature. What is nature? What we refer to as nature is a concept whose highest tier is the question of why God created this world, and lowest tier is human happiness. The question of creation of this world would be related to God’s Asma-o-Sifat. A human who lives his life according to nature will thus have a strange connection with God. In that connection, seperate definitions of the creator and the created will not be possible. This is a very complex and strange concept, and no human has the power to completely understand it. (November 4, 2008)

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Saraye …

And I expect it to be a smooth journey? I expect to be loved by this world? How cowardly is that? Mine is a rocky road. It takes you away from things of this world. Why do I want to be loved? People like me get laughed at, we are not loved! Its written in loh-o-qalam. The only fortune of the traveler is the rocky road ahead, the infinite rocky road… and I thought I had a beautiful stop? That is so lame! Its the road and me, and the never ending journey. Forget about these things Jaffar Hussain. Somethings are simply not for you…

Yeh zindagi din hai, aur hum uss mein roza-dar…

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Uncle Latif

Uncle Latif is a gardener who works on the flower beds in my house. When I look at his life, I’m awed. If there is anything like a perfect life, this guy is living it!

He is a gardener. He lives in the Lawrence garden employee quarters. His quarter is haunted by three churails. Sometimes, one of the churails take over his brother’s wife, so he beats up the poor lady. He is very strong and he can beat up any guy. All other gardeners and security guards in the Lawrence garden fear him. They call him Latif Jagga. He has a special place among the gardeners because he drives the garden tractor. He treated a friend with 2 kg chicken karahi so that he would teach him how to drive the tractor. He had 4-5 kids. (I always seem to have lost the count of them) His kids want a PC. He cannot buy one. He has a grudge against one of our tenants because he throws orange peel in the flower beds. One day, he picked up all the orange peel and made a heap of it in front of the tenant’s room. The tenant threatened him that he will bring guys to beat him up. Uncle Latif thinks he can beat up all the guys summoned against him. Our tenant calls Uncle Latif “Malik sahab ka chaheeta“. Uncle Latif is not very religious. Sometime he prays, most of the times he doesn’t. He frequents at Turt Peer’s tomb.

Uncle Latif doesn’t give a damn about the world. He doesn’t give a damn about philosophies. He knows there is a God. He knows one day he will die and he will have to face God. So he must do good. SO he wakes up in the morning, puts his hand down in the dirt, serves the plants, threaten a few guys to death, and when he is tired enough, he goes to sleep.

His life is perfect.

I have come to a conclusion. If one comes to define a perfect life in terms of philosophy or in terms of religion or in terms of spirituality, it comes down to a plain man living in a remote country location who believes in God and doesn’t think a lot. Uncle Latif is already doing things which I only plan to do one day in life. He is living life as my mind boggling philosophies tell me how to live. He reminds me of the sheep of Banu-Israel. He reminds me of Ben-Hur, the one who believed without asking too many questions. I make fun of religious people, who think they have it all figured out. I have made such people loose their faith because of my devious questions. But I cannot, in a thousand years time, even think of being able to shake Uncle Latif’s beliefs!

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Xibalba

I don’t have anything to write anymore. I have reached a point where the intellect gives way to heart. I was an atheist at a time. I kept thinking, not being dishonest or delusional. Slowly, all my thoughts came to be in sync with the nature. Hence intellect has become trivial. Words describe logic. Logic doesn’t explain all there is. And logic has come to its conclusions.

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Its the fourth time I have opened this page to write something. Unlike usual, I have nothing in my mind.

The discussions here are useless. People don’t even get close to the meaning of things I say. I start feeling awkward when I talk to other people about things I write. They think they know me and have read each and every line of my palm, but they have absolutely no idea.

My actions don’t follow my thoughts. But then, my actions don’t feel that important anyway. I am once again returning to the same old place where I felt everything to be absolutely meaningless and artificial. I am once again feeling a need for a connection with the hereafter.

I don’t live in this world, and I have nothing to say to people who live here. Only people who feel that they belong somewhere else can understand what I say. So how can I say something meaningful about this world?

Maran tu aggay mar gaye bahoo, tan matlab nu paya hoo! (Kalam-e-Bahoo)

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Life is a Dream

Life is a dream. God is the dream weaver. When He would wish so, He would give you a call, and you will wake up. People refer to that experience as death. I refer to it as an awakening.

After death is not eternal either. Its another dream. This life is a dream within a dream. We will keep waking up, only to find out that we have waken up into another dream.

With every awakening, new revelations will be dawned. E.g. when you sleep and see a dream, you are not really thinking. You are not able to use the powers you have in the world. Similarly, there is more to us, only that we need awakening.

I presented a similar concept in this post previously. Some of you might relate this concept to the avagon belief of the Hindu mythology.

Sada chirian da chamba way…

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Holy Dread!

Behold the cursed ones!

Insight is the biggest curse upon a human. When you are able to see how things happen, the world falls apart. Everything becomes tasteless. You are not able to enjoy your instincts anymore. Still a part of you keeps wanting it. Thus a war begins inside you. The war brings out more facts about God and His inferior images, winding and stepping down gradually and coming down to the creation called this world, and ofcourse the human.

While the world becomes meaningless for you, the others around you look at you in religious and spiritual perspectives and while not understanding you even a bit, form strong opinions about you. A lot of people start holding you up in high esteem. They don’t realise that you are nothing but one of them, not a dime of difference.

While they uphold you in a holy manner, you become absolutely sick of this world. That is a holy dread!

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n Dimensions

Behold, this would be the craziest post on my blog!

I has these words titled on my blog for a long time:

Humans are just ink spots on the fabric of this universe. Every thread in the fabric represents a different trait. Some spots are small, some are large, some even grow a lot and become dominant on other spots. Some spots have well-defined boundries, others don’t. Some spots might actually be unique in shape and size, but ink spots is what they are. An ink spot can never ever realise what the endless and infinite fabric and its threads are all about.
~me AUG 29, 2006

I now think that this is not true unless you limit the statement to this physical world. Here is the thing: Most people believe that there are two worlds; this one and the hereafter. I believe that there are limitless worlds after this one. A human will keep transitioning from one to another continuously.

Ever wondered how they say that God is from the very beginning of things and will last till the very end. There is no definition of the beginning and there is no end. If that is so, then what happens to the concept of time?

To explain, I must use mathematical terms. Time is the independant variable of this physical world. Lets call it t. The world after this one has some other independant variable. A variable which we cannot interpret using our brain which is limited by physical laws. Lets call that variable X. Now t and X are orthogonal to each other.

Orthogonality just doesn’t mean a difference of 90 degrees in phase. It means that the basis vector of each world is unique and matually exclusive with just a single point of intersection with other basis vectors.

In other words, time implodes into X and X implodes into time. Here in this world, we can see time to be infinity. It has no known start and it will never come to an end. But X is a static parameter in this world. In the next world, X would be an infinite variable, and time would be static factor.

Ever wondered why they call the next world “la zaman”? (a place without time) Ever wondered how it was possible for Prophet PBUH to visit all of the worlds hereafter in absolutely no time? There is no time after this world!

Now there are not just two worlds. There are limitless worlds. And every world has an independant variable of its own. And all these variables are orthogonal to each other. God truly made an n dimensional system.

When I first heard that they derived the laws of algebra from Arabic philosophical literature, I was surprised. But now, it makes sense. :)

These are the things which keep me up at night.

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Human’s Role

Humans are powerless creatures. They are governed by a set of rules, physical/biological laws they cannot bypass. At the same time, it is never certain that the causes will yield the expected results everytime! Humans try to create causes. Results are never totally predictable. Everything comes down to how God wants it to happen. This powerless-ness results in passive roles by humans, i.e. they are not important! Things where they do have a choice doesn’t make a difference after all.

Life thus becomes meaningless. You loose all your emotions. You become sad. At that time, you want to be like everyone else! You want to be a common man, with ambitions and desires. You want to want life. But that cannot happen easily. Returning to beastality requires ignoring the voice of honesty inside yourself. That is not possible for someone who lives by that voice.

Living with that brutal voice of truth and being happy at the same time! That is the puzzle of the moment in my life.

Let us see what God says. (Yes, He is there) He sent us guidance. He told us a lots of rules. He told us to do things which apparently don’t have a lots of logic attached to it. For example, consider what muslims do while performing Hajj. Circulating a big black house, running seven times between mountains, staying at a desert for a day… And He tells us that these things matter. Now consider the rules which He tells us. He gives us rules which govern even very minute and little things in our lives. He tells us rules of trade, talking, walking etc. These things bring me to this question: Why is God so concerned about little things in our lives? Humans and this world as a whole are meaningless! Why bother? Does God wants us to be interested in the meaningless jargon of this world?

Doing things without reasons is called belief. God tells us to do things without reason. That is why when people like me create reasons for things to happen, He keeps ruining their plans :) He wants us to ask Him for everything, not just depend upon the logic of things. Does that mean that God doesn’t want use to use our minds? or maybe He wants us to use our minds within a certain limit.

And so you have the intended role of a human. Be interested in life but follow all the rules. And look at me: I am not interested in life, and I question all of His rules. I think God often talks about very small things. He is God, He is the only one who really matters. Why doesn’t He stay away from petty things? If He is interested enough, then why shouldn’t I be interested in the small things?

These are the things which keep me up at night.

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The Bottom Line.

Into thy hands I commend my spirit.

- Jesus Christ
Luke 23:46

…for human is weak and his mind is limited. Realisations lead to sadness. Like I said in my previous post, peace comes in either deluding into your animal instincts i.e. life or in sticking with the being who is beyond all human logic. I tried delusion and couldn’t let it overcome me. Then I tried using my logic and breaking a few threads which tie us to humanity. I failed and realised that there is a being whose will can over-ride human logic. So for a long time, I waited for Him to come to me… I am not sure whether He did come or not… So now, I won’t wait. I’ll do my thing and He will do whatever He does.

For those who will read these lines, know that being sheep is being in peace.

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Instincts, Intellect & Emotions

Continuing from the post titled “Mind, Soul and Heart”:

Instincts and intellect are features of a human mind. They are identical for everyone. Emotions are the first clue to the meta-physical aspects of this universe and makes people what they are. Emotions create a sense-less deluded person or an intellectual person from the same starting ground.

Humans are comparable to animals when born. Every moment lived will bring in emotions and eventually make a human better or worse than animals. What is an animal? A being which fullfills its instincts one way or the other, and once fullfilled, it will become content and won’t look for more just for the heck of it. What makes a human different? The ability to control his instincts and on the flip side, the desire to surpass his limits and go beyond fullfilling his instincts just for fun. Emotions make a human what he is!

Emotions have a dual property. Normally, people think that their instinctual urges are their emotions too. They do feel the emotions coming right from their hearts as well, but they are unable to distinct the two. The one who realise what his instincts are, is eventually lead to realising the greater entities inside him: soul and heart. Thus he realise what real emotions are and how they have a relation with something, which can only be felt and not described, called heart.

For those who haven’t gone through these thought processes himself, the above words would not make any sense. So don’t bother a lot… The most unlucky person is the world is the one who realises these facts and then decides to give in to his instincts. He kills the goodness of his heart and he is meant to be damned. God save us all, for he is the only one who can…

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Mind, Soul and Heart

If any of you still thinks I’m a normal person, this post would probably change your mind. I won’t describe why, I would just mention what I believe. Its because reasons are for mind. What’s beyond mind is not intellectual talk. :)

Human mind is a machine, with a large number of rules and regulations. Soul is the fuel to this machine. What is soul? Its a piece of God himself. How He gave it to us is a further discussion in Islamic spirituality. For those interested, a clue would be enough: the problem of Wahdatul-wajood and Wahdatush-shahood.

Now we come to the toughest concept of all: the concept of heart. Now see that mind (a machine) and soul (the fuel) are common to everybody. What makes you different than others is heart. Heart is what you are! After this material world (Aalam-e-Nasoot) there would be other worlds. The machines would change but soul and heart would remain the same.  The best way to know about heart is to feel it, but if I have to describe it, I would say that its a feature of your soul. Heart is what directs soul about running the machine of mind.

Thousands of people in history have written thousands of books about this topic. The problem is that its all simply a tale until it comes to you. And yes, it will come to everybody eventually.

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