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Stinger

May 9, 2009 · Filed under About me, Intellectual Talk

Of all people I have ever known, I was the most observant. I saw and heard what other people couldn’t. Hence I said things which other people couldn’t say.

And today I prefer to stay quiet.

I haven’t seen it all, I haven’t heard it all. Hence I haven’t said it all either. But I don’t need to do. For the real meaning is lost in our senses. For the real meaning cannot be seen or heard, and hence it cannot be said out loud.

The nut and acorn of our being is so simple, cruel and luxurious.

The meaning of all meanings, the utmost of all wisdom is to remain quiet. Like the Tao philosophy says, “Fill their stomachs, empty their minds”. At the end, the highest level of wisdom is to take your mind out of the way of your heart.

Its not easy for someone who has lived by the voice of his mind his whole life. But then, isn’t it all worth it?

The real meaning cannot be said, for the real meaning is a feeling.

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Indifference

November 2, 2008 · Filed under About me, Intellectual Talk, My Perfect World

Indifference to the evil around oneself is goodness of heart. Indifference to the evil within oneself is ignorance.

Today, people try to know the evil that surrounds them, and ignore the evil within themselves.

When I think of riddles in my life, I find it impossible that any other human being could be free from such thoughts. How can people not think the things I think?

Alas, we are drowning in this sea of irrelevance which has erased distinction between nature and evil.

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The Evil That Men Do…

October 31, 2008 · Filed under About me, Intellectual Talk, My Perfect World

Every human is born on nature. Every human wants to be happy. Pursuit of happiness is the only common ground among people of this world. Unfortunately, people don’t always know what makes them truly happy. When people can’t find answers easily, they tend to buy ideas from others. Therefore, when humans don’t know what happiness is, they become highly manipulatable.

Evil will never present itself as your enemy. It will try to become your best friend. It will provide you with a definition of happiness best suited for its sinister purposes. Since happiness is the most important thing for everyone, you will direct all your efforts towards achieving the happiness as defined by the evil. You will of course never feel completely happy, because the definition of happiness was never correct.

You have to define happiness by yourself. I cannot define it for you, but I can tell you how you need to think to be able to define happiness: Is there a voice inside you which isn’t satisfied with a certain thing in your life? Listen to that voice. It will lead you to happiness.

Note: Its a shame that I have to start from the nut and acorn of the human being. Humans have been programmed to such a degree that no word of advice from generations of wise men seem relevant to the modern world anymore.

What Orwell feared were those who would ban books. What Huxley feared was that there would be no reason to ban a book, for there would be no one who wanted to read one. Orwell feared those who would deprive us of information. Huxley feared those who would give us so much that we would be reduced to passivity and egoism. Orwell feared that the truth would be concealed from us. Huxley feared the truth would be drowned in a sea of irrelevance. Orwell feared we would become a captive culture. Huxley feared we would become a trivial culture . . . In short, Orwell feared that what we hate will ruin us. Huxley feared that what we love will ruin us.

—Neil Postman

The quote is wonderful. But I disclaim complete adherence to Aldous Huxley’s philosophy, since he was associated with the Darwin’s school of thought. The quote should be read in its current context, and not expanded to cover all of Huxley’s ideas.

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Normal?

July 27, 2008 · Filed under About me, Intellectual Talk, My Perfect World

Being normal is a relative concept. For example, I don’t want to be normal relative to the world today. People like me are destined to have problems. I can simply not digest things around me. My defense system throws the toxic stuff out. So I have accepted myself as a person who is never going to be at terms with the world as it is today.

Doesn’t make me normal, but is a farcry at making me more natural.

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How to live?

June 28, 2008 · Filed under Abnormal Psychology, About me, Beyond this World, Intellectual Talk

“Logic is human creation”, I thought “It is limited and cannot be trusted. A man must give up to His ways.” “I should stop being no analytical, and be more impulsive.” I concluded.

That is what I said in this post. Ofcourse humans make mistakes and reach inaccurate conclusions.

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Human mind is machine with an input and output system. The outputs are our emotions, decisions, conclusions, action plans etc. Outputs are pretty straight forward. Its the inputs which are complicated. We think that things we see in the world, our experiences, information and knowledge are the inputs. I don’t think so. I think our observations are in a way just a process of the machine itself. The inputs are very concealed.

Have you ever wondered when some idea comes to your mind, and you think why the idea didn’t come to you before? Many times we relate the ideas to our experiences in life, but I have had ideas which just came without any connection with my conscious.

These random ideas trigger processes in our mind which result in our emotions and conclusions. Are these random ideas really random? I think not. As I’ve said before, I think every thing He does is well calculated and planned.

The input to our mind are ideas given by Him. If it was not so, everybody in the world would become identical to each other! Its the variety of ideas which make everyone different.

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When my ideas and my mind are His creations, how can I say that my logical conclusions are my creations? I reach all my conclusions because He wants me to reach those conclusions. So how can I simply trash my logic?

Yes, this does raise the confusing question of “who am I?” And I have no answer to that.

For a very long time, “how to live” has been a riddle in my mind. But now I am giving up this riddle. I choose to be logical, then I choose to be impulsive. But really, I don’t know the complete picture. New things keep coming up.

We should just live. Sometimes we are going to do things logically, sometimes we are just going to go by gut. We should just let ourselves be, set ourselves free. And we must do the right thing when we come to the crossroads. When I come to the crossroads in my life, I stop and think, “Is this description of right thing logical or impulsive?” No damnit! Don’t think like that! The fact is that you always know what the right thing is. Just do it.

I have just realized that in the past, I couldn’t concentrate on doing the right thing because I was so preoccupied with all these philosophical questions. I simply didn’t have a clear head for such a long time. Anyway, it was what He wanted. I guess there is no use in regretting what has happened already.

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… goes on.

June 23, 2008 · Filed under Beyond this World, Intellectual Talk

Many times in my life, I thought I knew what I was doing. I though I had finally figured out how to live. But God likes to give us surprises. It doesn’t take long before He shatters down our logic, and builds a new one for us. A new logic comes into place, to solve the problems with the old logic, and to introduce some new riddles.

A problem cannot be solved with the same level of consciousness that created it.

- Albert Einstein

With every step, the role of logic is stepped down, and the role of the emotions is stepped up. Since giving up logic make humans feel that they are not doing enough, or that they have gone worse off, they try to regain their logic. I have finally figured out that this is not the way to go. With every step, the role of God Himself is stepped up more evident than before, and the limitations of your role become more obvious. The way to go is to stop trying, to stop resisting His ways. Let Him do the thing, for He will do it anyway, and our resisting, our logic doesn’t matter anyway.

Then may be a human can find peace.

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Mental Poise

June 14, 2008 · Filed under Beyond this World, Intellectual Talk

After long years spent in vain efforts to quench desire by indulgence, the truth dawned on him.

Returning to Puru, he said: “Dear son, sensual desire is never quenched by indulgence any more than fire is by pouring ghee in it. I had heard and read this, but till now I had not realised it. No object of desire, corn, gold, cattle or women, nothing can ever satisfy the desire of man, we can reach peace only by a mental poise beyond likes and dislikes. Such is the state of Brahman.”

- Yayati, Mahabharat

Likes and dislikes are objects of our mind. Nature doesn’t have likes and dislikes. Nature has a way. Nature guides you when your mind fails.

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Random?

June 12, 2008 · Filed under About me, Beyond this World, Intellectual Talk

When humans fail to model something, they call it random. Heck they even have a whole model to describe randomness itself, i.e. the Brownian motion! There is no Brownian motion in my life, nothing just happened for no reason.

Saying that something can be random is saying that God isn’t “all mighty”. If you believe in God, you will believe that everything has a careful plan behind it.

I, like God, do not play with dice and I don’t believe in coincidences.

- from V for Vendetta

Note: I will like to quote from Nahjul Balagha here: God knows the place where a leaf fallen from a tree will land. (November 4, 2008)

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What is Love?

June 9, 2008 · Filed under About me, Intellectual Talk

I’ve never loved a woman. So I don’t know what loving a woman is like. I sometimes wonder how something can be so great that you would never want another woman in your life!!?? That seems a bit unrealistic. But then there is this other feeling, which tells me that yes, it will be that beautiful and wonderful. If love it will be, it will be that legendary.

People I love are natural selection, i.e. my family. Though my mind likes to tell me that loving a woman would be my own selection, I don’t really buy it. Loving a woman would be a natural selection as well. Otherwise, it simply wouldn’t be as great as it must be.

Again, the confusion of where His choices end, and my choices start, prevails. :)

Note 1: Lol! Commenting at this post is very difficult for me at this point in time. Yes, what I said above holds true. Yes, such decisions are always a natural selection rather than a human’s own selection. These decisions are part of the nature. Nature is prevelent, and everything done according to nature leads you to the ultimate happiness. I knew things will be good. I didn’t know they will be so good. The way things did eventually go, it was more of a divine decision rather than a human decision. At the end, I didn’t even feel the need to use my own judgment. (November 4, 2008) :)

Note 2: The post and the note above will go down in the history. :) (November 4, 2008)

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Haray Rama…

June 4, 2008 · Filed under About me, Beyond this World, Intellectual Talk

Kis waqt dasht ko tanha chora

Har pal aik aabla paa hota hai

- Tariq Zaidi

Each moment of my life is monitored very very closely. Every step, every action is analyzed, conclusions are reached. I’m never left alone. Nothing in my life remains unexplained. Everything is exposed to so much light. Living free is not a concept for me.

Still, I cannot draw a line of where He ends and I start. The question is: Who is me? Because I cannot see ‘me’ anywhere in my life and this world. So the most I can do is to say: I – with whatever limit that is where I start – ask You – with whatever limit that is where You can actually end – to make my desires, Your desires; for everything is how you desire.

And people have the nerve to judge others…

Note: This concept of analysing everything goes a lot deeper than what it might look like on the top. When I wrote this post, analysing everything was actually the right thing to do. At that time, that seemed to be the right thing. Later I realized that too much thinking makes you obsessed with the thoughts you originally wanted to quit. Hence analysing too much isn’t the right thing. This realization was at a psychological level. Yet another level of realization is done at a level of belief and feelings, where a human is a being created on nature and he is simply not supposed to think about things which lead to deviation from nature. (November 4, 2008)

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The Foundation Stone

May 25, 2008 · Filed under About me, Beyond this World, Intellectual Talk

People rely on knowledge and logic. People also have a concept about “the ultimate truth”. People define their version of “the ultimate truth” or “the absolute reality” where their logic cannot find a way.

People define “the ultimate truth” in an abstract way. May be a person bestowed with more ideas than me can explain my version of “the ultimate truth” with logic. Still, even he will have a concept of the absolute reality which would be yet another level of abstraction.

My concepts, beliefs and knowledge might just be a subset of another person’s. They might overlap with someone else. A highly unlikely situation of being mutually exclusive concepts might also be there.

The absolute knowledge belongs to God.

Note: Okay, this one even confused me. :| I don’t agree anymore with the first statement that you define the ultimate truth where logic cannot find a way. My beliefs reflect the ultimate truth. Things will become more and more clear to you with the passage of time. You will realize how things you previously only believed mean so much more in so many different ways. I will agree with the concept that my knowledge can be a subset of another person’s knowledge. Nature is the common factor across the universe. Such overlapping of knowledge and realizations is possible. (November 4, 2008)

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The Worthwhile Dream

May 14, 2008 · Filed under About me, Intellectual Talk

People have dreams about how life should be like. Some people hold their dreams so dear that they wouldn’t let anyone or anything get in the way of their dreams. They go wrong. Dreams shouldn’t be about how life should be. Dreams should be about loving and being loved back. That is the only dream worth living.

Note: More important is maybe the comment I wrote for Amal. Paradise is right here in this world when you don’t deviate from the nature. (November 4, 2008)

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Qeht-ur-Rijal

May 8, 2008 · Filed under About me, Beyond this World, Intellectual Talk, My Perfect World, Uncategorized

Where are the men? Where are the men with courage to have their chests ripped apart by the blade of their enemy’s sword? Where are the men with heart to kill another man when they fight for the right? Where are the men who actually believe enough to stand up for it?

Yet more, where are the men who conquered themselves? Where are those who listen to the voice of truth inside themselves? Where are the men with strong will who would do the right thing even when the world doesn’t like it?

These men don’t exist anymore. Rajul means a man, qeht-ur-rijal means lack of men.

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In one of his short stories, Intizar Hussain said that creation of a flour strainer caused the class system to evolve. I very much agree to this. The rich did not want to eat the rough whole flour, and started eating smoother refined flour. Refined flour is required for preparation of the delicacies, the food of the rich.

When you strain the flour so that you are left only with fine white flour, you take out essential nutrition contents from the wheat. Eating fine flour over extended period of time causes malnutrition and excess of estrogen in body. Excess of estrogen causes testosterone levels to go down. Excess of estrogen is directly related to depression, diseases and loss of virility. Depression and poor health eventually lead to dissatisfaction, loss of will power, sadness, infertility, excessive worrying, guilt and fear.

The psychological defense to their fears is to start believing that there is no reason to be afraid, that they are mighty and will not be resurrected. Hence the excessive worrying, fear and sadness causes most to loose their religious beliefs. They don’t see God’s hand in anything. Everything seems only logical. Life seems absurd. Atheism comes in. Science becomes God.

Since they think there is no hereafter, life is overemphasized. Having a “perfect life” becomes more important. The distinction between right and wrong becomes meaningless. Fulfillment of instincts becomes more important than doing the right thing.

Even if they do realize what is right, they might not actually do it because of the lack of will power.

For this fulfillment and a perfect life, people set certain goals. Perfect physical appearance, wealth, fashion, personality and style and what not…

Now think: If you don’t let such a person fulfill his instincts, his life will become miserable. To fulfill his instincts, he will do anything! He will pay you to have a perfect life. He will pay you for any stupid thing which he thinks is important for his life. Since a man cannot possibly have everything he wants, he will be stuck in the vicious cycle of sadness and temporary happiness he gets by spending money on things he thinks he wants.

Now look at the world today. We have processed foods in plastic containers which are extremely high in estrogen content. People today have higher levels of estrogen levels than ever before. This leads to lack of testosterone which then leads to a host of physical and psychiatric problems. As explained above, the person goes through the vicious cycle. The corporates running under the capitalist economy create all the foods high in estrogen contents. Corporate sector then makes the medicines for all the new fancy diseases. Corporates make cosmetics, designer clothes, and all other things to pamper a human’s instincts. Corporates run media to show you all the californication. You join the missing links. The corporate world is the biggest supporter of science. They are the ones making fun of religions and beliefs.

So today, people have bad health, weak beliefs, they are depressed and worried, they want to have a perfect life and they earn to buy stuff which make them only temporarily happy. All good for capitalism and corporate culture!

If people would stick to basic unprocessed foods, there would be no corporate culture!!! They would be happier, healthier and would be strong in beliefs. All these things simply go together.

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So how can we have men anymore? Real men don’t exist anymore, thanks to capitalism, atheism and the american dream.

Note: Definitely a phenomenal post. This post is from the initial phase of my attempts to theorize why humans cannot be happy. This post was a huge step in the right direction. Though this post might seem only political, this has everything to do with my life, beliefs and feelings. (November 4, 2008)

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Planning

April 29, 2008 · Filed under Intellectual Talk

When humans plan, and nothing comes out of the plan, they think it was because their plan was flawed. But a human’s plan is always flawed, because a human is limited in knowledge. Still, God sometimes bestows human with success even with his flawed plan. The plan doesn’t matter. Its the recognition of the fact, that your plan can be flawed, that your plan cannot be trusted; which is known as belief. When you believe, you say, “I will do the right thing even if circumstances go against me.” When you start following the voice of truth no matter what, you become aligned with the nature. Your desires too, come to be aligned with the nature. When you are closer to nature, your will closes down with God’s will. Hence, submission is the key.

Plan, but don’t trust your plans. Trust God.

I recognized God by planning going futile.

-Hazrat Ali

Note: Why do we have to plan at all? Why do we have to ‘follow’ the voice of truth? God created us on nature. The nature is ‘built-in’. We only need to avoid things which threaten to mutate that nature. And the best way to avoid those things is to ask God to keep you away from those things. As far as the quote by Hazrat Ali (KW) goes, I will need to research it again. (November 4, 2008)

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Emotions & Me

April 27, 2008 · Filed under About me, Intellectual Talk

I don’t say stuff like “Happy Birthday”, “Eid Mubarak”, “Best of Luck”, “Love ya” etc. When I go to my office, I walk straight to my desk, without any ritualistic greetings. I hate small talk. Just yesterday, I was sitting with a bunch of guys who hardly knew each other. While they joked around making stupid comments, I sat quiet. They were joking, and yet they were formal. While people bond over conversations about weather, I sit like dead wood. If I don’t have anything real to say, I just stay quiet. When I sit down and joke around with my friends, it a no holds barred experience.

I just simply hate being formal, be it social interaction or religious practices. (E.g. I don’t like to refer to God as “aap”, I refer to Him as “tu”)

I don’t believe in words. (Lol, that is ironic coming from someone who is a published writer and has remained a professional writer as well) When you try to express your emotions, you limit your emotions.

This is exactly why I say that I am an honest person. If me and another guy has nothing to talk about, I would make it obvious… If he says, “It was very hot today”, I would simply say, “Yes, it was”. I fail to understand how people can make a big deal out of hot weather. :s

Whatever I do in life, it is totally pure. I don’t pretend. If I act up, I feel cheap.

I just wrote a comment related to this:

Problem is that when I express my emotions out loud, I feel that I am being dishonest to my emotions… because emotions simply cannot be expressed in words. It takes a lifetime to express an emotion… A few sentences simply cannot do the justice…

Note: I feel that the concept I described above is very important to keep in touch with the reality. Most of such ‘formal’ greetings are a part of this brave new world lifestyle. One must be truthful in all actions. Also, one must protect his pure actions from being stereotyped. (November 4, 2008)

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Great War

April 26, 2008 · Filed under Intellectual Talk, My Perfect World

A friend at work was going through my blog, discussing stuff with me, and I kept mentioning my depression again and again. That is when he said, “Depression na ho gaya, world war ho gai“. (Its just depression, not a world war.)

That reminded me of this quote from Fight Club:

We don’t have a great war in our generation, or a great depression, but we do, we have a great war of the spirit. We have a great revolution against the culture. The great depression is our lives. We have a spiritual depression.
-Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 19

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Judge Me?

April 26, 2008 · Filed under About me, Beyond this World, Intellectual Talk

You guys don’t know me. Stuff I write here possibly makes sense only to me. Still you come here and read. You deduce meanings from my writings which I never intended.

I generalize and theorize my topics. Still, every post I write is closely related to my life and what I am experiencing at the moment.

People read, interact with me and assume that they have read every line on my palm. Like I said in my previous post, I am an ordinary person exposed to extraordinary concepts and people. No matter what I write, there are parts of me which remain hidden.

I look at life and this world as a part of a very big picture. Normally, people don’t look at life at all, they just live it.

A friend recently read a post on my blog and said, “You have started to sound like folk tales.” That is true. My life has exposed me to things which made me reach those timeless conclusions. Once again, God created an extraordinary setting for my life, it was none of my achievement.

When I really did have some control over things in life, I screwed up. I failed myself. Every good thing in my life is totally to be attributed to God.

A human has intellect. Fuel to intellect are ideas. A human has some control over how he wants to use his intellect. But he has absolutely no control what ideas come to his mind. Ideas come from God. All a human needs to do is to ‘process’ the ideas honestly.

Lets just say that God gives me a lot of ideas.

This blog cannot possibly tell about all the ideas in my head. How can you possibly judge me from my blog?

Being judgmental is the most useless use of our brain. Be more emotional. Love me, hate me. And do it impulsively, don’t base it on ‘reasons’. How can you love someone or hate someone for reasons.

I am writing all this because some people judge me based on what I write. How can you, when even I cannot? Every next moment gives me a new insight about the moments that have gone by.

Vanity kills the soul.

Note: I like this post for the concept of how ideas are from God. However, processing each and every idea at a conscious level, analysing and controlling your phyche doesn’t seem to be a very good idea. One should live free. Overall, this is one of those “nobody knows me” posts. (November 4, 2008)

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Of Trophies & Wives

April 19, 2008 · Filed under Intellectual Talk

I am actually surprised when I see guys hanging out with their wives who are without hijab. I fail to understand why men would want their wives to spend on others what belongs to them.

I think I know the answer now. It helps their ego to be satisfied. Their wives are not wives, someone they love. Their wives are trophies, stuff to show off, not human beings.

Women want female rights; a right to go free from hijab if they feel so. These feminists want to be trophy wives, someone that enables their hubbies to pamper their egos.

Real love is beyond ego. If there is one thing which holds a man down, it has to be ego. Ego tells you its okay to do something wrong, because you are special, because you are some kind of a paranormal being. Maniacs!

If a man is okay with his wife not wearing hijab, he probably doesn’t love her.

Note: This post was a micro-analysis of how brave new world lifestyle can affect your decisions in personal matters. Although what I have written above is true, I couldn’t relate a lot to this post because I don’t look at things at a micro level anymore. Such attitudes come with an un-natural lifestyle. Relating such attitudes to ego alone doesn’t reflect the whole situation. (November 4, 2008)

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Me & You

April 17, 2008 · Filed under About me, Beyond this World, Intellectual Talk

Calling myself “me” is a statement of ego. Referring to you as “you” is not compassionate. Combining you and me as “we” is disrespectful. Calling me “you” is an over-statement. Feeling you as “me” is love.

-Stinger :)

The lines above sum up the great depression of my life. Finally, I can say that its over.

Note: As strange as it might sound, the above quote does actually sum up everything I today believe and feel. The last sentence, “Feeling you as “me” is love” is the most important. It should be noted that God created us on nature. What is nature? What we refer to as nature is a concept whose highest tier is the question of why God created this world, and lowest tier is human happiness. The question of creation of this world would be related to God’s Asma-o-Sifat. A human who lives his life according to nature will thus have a strange connection with God. In that connection, seperate definitions of the creator and the created will not be possible. This is a very complex and strange concept, and no human has the power to completely understand it. (November 4, 2008)

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Disgust

April 10, 2008 · Filed under Intellectual Talk

Today I observed something interesting in the park. I saw a fashionable so-called modern and enlightened moderated woman whom you might refer to as a be-sharam be-haya aurat :P and I saw a burqa-posh woman with a so-called aura of spirituality and taqaddus around her. They were walking on the jogging track in opposite directions.

As they approached to one another, the fashionable one glared at the hijabi one with eye that said “o you miserable ignorant prisoner within the walls of male dominance and cultural restrictions”.

But hey, the hijabi one gave her a look too! And it said “you delusional bitch who is no more than a trophy for men with wealth”

When you look at someone with disgust, you are being looked back too.

Don’t judge. Leave the judgment to God.

I believe God will not judge humans by comparing them to other humans. He will judge them by how much they listened to the voice of truth inside them.

Note: Though I won’t say that what I wrote above is wrong, I wouldn’t totally approve it either. The only sentence which holds completely true is the last one: “He will judge them by how much they listened to the voice of truth inside them.” I would like to portray this post about how one should forget about all the stereotypes, and live freely. The voice of truth, and not the stereotypes lead to the ultimate truth and peace. I would also want to point out how I was judgemental of both those ladies myself. This post is irrelevant to my beliefs and feelings now. (November 4, 2008)

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